It did not go well

LOT audition for Elixir.... was today...

2 weeks ago, I fully expected that I would make callbacks.
1 week ago, I started to doubt.
Yesterday, I decided I'd have to be lucky to make callbacks.
Today, I knew they'd have to be deaf to call me back.

It did not go well. By some standards, it didn't go horribly, but in my book, it really did not go well. I didn't need to make callbacks, I just needed to give a performance I could be proud of - one that would reflect my decades of training and weeks of preparation. But I didn't. The good news is that it's behind me now, so I can go on with my life and start rehearsing something other than the audition music I've been hammering for the last three weeks. I'm frustrated, though. Unfortunately, times like this take a huge chunk out of my self-esteem, no matter how supportive my friends or the directors (also friends!) are.

I do take some comfort in my husband's love, though. He was so affirming today (my love language!), and while it didn't make me feel tons better about myself, it did make me feel incredibly lucky to have such a supportive and loving partner in life. If I had to choose between the career or the husband, I'd choose the husband any day.

A Funny Thing...

... Happened On The Way To The Nuptials

http://denver.yourhub.com/Golden/Events/Theater/Event~518581.aspx

A comedic musical revue by Confluence, a Golden community choir.

I joined this group this month. I saw this show when they did it last year. It's cheesy, but it's supposed to be. Now I'm taking the role that was left open when someone left the group. Oddly enough, they also lost a tenor who only had one singing part, which they reassigned to an alto, but for the whole wedding thing to work out, they still needed another guy. Where could we find another guy?

Yep! Eric is doing the show with me! We haven't performed together since I Pagliacci with the Colorado Opera Troupe in 2001 when he played the walk-on roles of the priest and the policeman. (And played them marvelously!) So, I'm looking forward to bringing him back into my world for a little while. The show is next weekend, 9/27 @ 7pm & 9/28 @ 3pm. Details at the link above!

Five fabulous years!

Happy Anniversary, Eric, my love! I love you more than words can possibly convey. Thank you for five fabulous years!
(And many more! cha-cha-cha!)

Peaks and Valleys

Eric and I seem to be at a peak in the cycle of our marriage, which is absolutely shocking given that he is working an odd combination of days and nights and is therefore sleeping very little. Sadly, I know that this peak will not last indefinitely. I always chant to myself, "this, too, shall pass" when things are going badly, but I think it is worth remembering when things are going well, too; then when the natural cycle in our marriage pulls us down into another valley, maybe we won't think of it as a crisis, but instead as just an inevitable bump in the road that truly will move on again to make way for another peak.