It's been a very challenging week for me as a teacher for a variety of reasons. The most recent snag is that one of my best students didn't get a role in her school musical.
To give you an idea of how she ranks within her school, last year she sang the role of Maria in
The Sound of Music at her school (and did a knock-out job! See March blog) and she was the only student from her whole school to get into All-State Choir. When I heard that her school was doing the musical,
Anything Goes, I was thrilled. The role of Reno is perfect for her. In fact, I was convinced that they chose the musical specifically for her - kind of like Doc did when I was in high school by doing
Fiddler on the Roof the year Jordan Sher was a senior. So, I was floored when her mom called tonight to tell me that not only did they not give her the role of Reno, they didn't give her any role at all! And that musical has several supporting roles. They put her in the chorus. This, her senior year, and she's planning to major in music! What a terrible disappointment!
I had a student last year who was denied a leading role because her school had a policy against any student having a leading role two years in a row. But they
told her this so she understood.
This student's teacher didn't pull her aside to explain or do anything to prepare her for what she must have known was going to be a hard blow. I will be interested to hear what she and her mother can get from the choir teacher in the way of an explanation. I mean, they have every right not to cast her, but in an
educational situation like that, I think it's important that a student of her caliber understand what factors worked against her.
And sadly, I think I know how my student feels. She's worked very hard, she thought she was sure to get a role and then she was blind-sided. Like when I applied for a master's in voice performance at CU Boulder after doing my undergrad at the #1 music school in the country (Indiana U!). I couldn't believe a state school in my own state would turn me down with the qualifications I had. I was devastated.
Now, on one hand I've been told that there were political issues going on at CU which would make it harder for an in-state student to get in than an out-of-state one. So, there was sort of an explanation later on, though I have no real proof of it. But on the other hand, I was never meant to be in Boulder, and I don't think I was meant to get my master's in performance either. I just hadn't realized it yet. I am not doing my graduate work in Music Education because I
couldn't do it in Performance. Not at all - I was accepted to the Performance program at DU, but turned it down. No, it was during that time that I suddenly realized that although I love performing, I didn't want the lifestyle of a performer - the traveling so many months out of the year. I like being at home and I want to raise a family. And at the same time, I was discovering how much I really enjoyed teaching, even though it had originally been a means to an end. And UNC is among the best places in the country to get a music education degree.
So, the point is, I know how crushed I was when I first found out that I wasn't accepted to CU. I knew God had a plan, but I couldn't begin to fathom what it was. And that's where my student is now. And God revealed His plan in His own time and it is better than anything I could have dreamed up on my own. He will do the same for my student.
Like I said, her mom called to tell me what happened. I don't actually see her until Tuesday, so I have that long to figure out the best way to encourage her. I have an idea how I will start, but I would be interested in how y'all would handle it if you were in my position...